Statement of purpose.

This is my daily struggle:

When I have something I need to accomplish...

• Being naturally lazy, my first impulse is to "do nothing." Once I've jumped that hurdle (not too difficult, usually)...
• As a procrastinator, my next natural impulse is to "do it later." (After so many years, I've apparently become adept at fooling myself into believing I have "plenty of time to do it" - up until it's too late.) While I'm still struggling with that, being forgetful and distracted* causes me to sometimes become engrossed in other matters and genuinely forget about the first thing I had to do for a while. (Combined with the procrastination, they are my greatest obstacle.) When/if I've finally remembered to do it and also wrestled the bear that is my procrastination...
• My perfectionist tendency makes my next impulse be to "freak out," since by then there's usually not enough time to "do it properly" before the deadline. (This is often the final nail in the coffin of many of my endeavors, and why I almost never leave something 'partially finished;' things tend to be either Complete or Nonexistent.)

Due to all of this nonsense, I usually have a "ToDo List"** that grows faster than I can deal with, and it sometimes breaks my spirit when I consider just how much is left to do. I decided that perhaps I should make a little blog to list things I actually have accomplished each day, so I can look over it and feel a bit better.

On the flip side, I decided I should also list my excuses for why I didn't get more (or anything) done in a particular day, so I can see how ridiculous the rationalizations my screwed-up mind comes up with truly are.

* It could very well be undiagnosed ADHD or something.

** In quotations because I usually don't have an actual list of all the things I have yet to do.